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Hey, universe. Just an update. (I'm pissed at you, by the way. I told a co-worker earlier... "The Universe is on my shit list! I don't like how it's behaving and it can go screw itself!" So.. since Dad died... I've noticed that I've been withdrawing from society and I've begun to slowly seperate myself... Continue Reading →
She carried me over on a wild gust Of dead brown leaves and desert dust She handed me off to higher powers And doused me in her dirty smelling rain showers The ebb and flow of who you are and what you know Seem to fade away As soon as tomorrow is... Continue Reading →
So, two days ago, it was two months since Dad passed away and left us. I'll say right now that it's the most difficult thing I've ever had to deal with in life, but I have absolutely zero regrets. That's very important. While Dad was here, I spent many vacation hours and tons of gas... Continue Reading →
"Call Waiting" By Brian Bolding 8/6/19 // Dad, I tried to call you last night Did you hear the phone ring? I just wanted to hear your voice Were you listening? Dad, I was waiting for you To give me that phone call To tell me all about your latest great big fall...... Continue Reading →
I think about Dad every second of every hour of every day. I think about all the great times, they overshadow the bad or sad ones. The memories come flooding back quickly and unrelentlessly, like a Summer monsoon... Like the time that my Sister Nickie stood at her bedroom window and told me at the... Continue Reading →
There's an odd aura around him And his eyes are open but he can't see My Dad's not in there, I can't stop crying I feel his spirit wanting to be free Resonating, shining through He misses us already and he's preparing to leave, too. He's resonating still, here or there if you... Continue Reading →
The night of Friday, July 12, 2019 seemed like any other. That was twelve days ago, and life has been insane since then, so much that I don't know my life before it. To fill you in... I'd returned home from a busy day at work, wrapping up the week and preparing to begin work... Continue Reading →
I wanted to say "Happy 4th of July!" to everyone who celebrates this amazing country, along with myself. This includes everyone from ALL political parties. This is such an amazing country and I, along with many others, owe all our service men and women deep appreciation and gratitude today, and every day. For without them,... Continue Reading →
As I sit here at work sipping my Lemon Lift Bigelow hot tea (just because I'm out of office coffee), I'm reminded how awesome the past month has been. Finally! A good month! For starters, I just returned from visiting my big sis Nickie and my niece Daisy out in San Clemente, California. We had... Continue Reading →
Another Space for Someone New I know I need Another space for someone new But how can I Go on when I’m without you I know I need Another face or new hairdo But how can I Even get up out of bed Even get up out of bed When the world is spinning... Continue Reading →
Since the breakup with B, life has been a mixed bag of sorts. As of yesterday, the whole car accident situation has been fully resolved. After five weeks, i finally got my car back last night, fully repaired, and all that rental car business well and truly behind me. I can't tell you how relieved... Continue Reading →
So I'm sitting at my parents' house on my final day of my week-long vacation home... I've had a great time, and I needed this trip so very much. I arrived last Sunday morning around 2 am and dove into bed... I had just driven my usual 8.5 hours but half of that was riddled... Continue Reading →
I'm always amazed at how quickly life can change from one day to the next, after being reliable and somewhat stagnant and predictable for the longest time, too. What happened over the past month, and how I handled all of it, really means that I am truly ready for anything! Life has definitely thrown me... Continue Reading →
*I meant to post this last week on April 3rd, but life got in the way. Here's what I meant to post, unedited, and completely from the heart.* -BB *** I posted the following on Facebook earlier this week, on Monday: "With a heavy heart: B and I have decided to amicably split after nearly... Continue Reading →
I've started getting those looks. You know the ones. "Oh! You've lost weight!" "You look so thin!" "You dieting, bro?" And I, for one, am ecstatic that people are noticing. Since 2010, I've been focused on my health, in varying degrees, beginning with a massive 80 pound loss in 6 months back then. My weight... Continue Reading →
So, it's nearing March. I can't believe it. They say time goes by faster the older you get. I now know what that means! So the sibs and I got together over a text convo after Christmas and decided that it was time for another family vacation. We threw some places out in discussing this...... Continue Reading →
First off... Happy New Year! I know that gets old, but I really mean it. I wish everyone a happy new year. I promise I won't ask you about resolutions. I don't really 'do' resolutions, but instead, I use new years to reflect back upon the year and make sure I've learned my lessons and... Continue Reading →
When I'm happy and in a relationship, I always forget about how awful it was when I was single. It's happened from time to time in my life, sure. As a lover of words, I'm reposting this one, because I like how it flows and maybe it'll help somoene else out there who is single... Continue Reading →
The original Microsoft Surface Laptop debuted about a year ago, to a significant burst of YouTube reviews and fanfare. The device was particularly well received because of it's all-around good specs, it's revolutionary fuzzy Alcantara keyboard, it's amazing screen... even though the device was missing something everyone was wondering about: a USB C port. Instead,... Continue Reading →
Upon hearing that my Grandmother (Nanny) was ill, I visited home last Friday morning (drove 9 hours overnight)... I met up with my boyfriend B at Waffle House. We had a rushed but much needed dinner, we said our goodbyes, I packed up all my things and my 2 dogs, and I was gone. I'm... Continue Reading →
My Nanny was diagnosed with Cerebrovascular disease and vascular dementia a few months ago. She had a stroke and is not getting blood flow to her brain. Her knight in shining armor, Tuffy, is watching her along with my Mom and her sisters at their home in North Richland Hills. I made the 9 hour... Continue Reading →
So it's 10:00 pm on a Thursday night and I just realized... Thanksgiving and Christmas is literally right around the corner. In less than like a week, it'll be Thanksgiving. I honestly can't believe that. Every year, right after Halloween, I always freak out because as soon as you've got one good week under your... Continue Reading →
It was in the seventies about a week ago. Today? 41. The weather has definitely changed and I'm so freaking excited. Being a creature who literally becomes a walking talking portable heater, I always welcome the freshness and crispness that sometimes Fall brings. Looks like it's gonna be a nice cool Winter, and we need... Continue Reading →
I've been meaning to write about my Cabo trip for the longest... my apologies for taking so long in doing so! I've just been busy with work and school, sick, and enjoying time with my boyfriend as often as we can in between everything. It's been difficult to keep up my blog on a daily,... Continue Reading →
There is some tech that seems like a rehash of what's come before, and there is also tech that seems flashy, too gimmicky and overpriced; the Microsoft Surface Go tablet, I feel, embraces the flash of design, the joy of super portability and combines that with adequate performance. It takes what's so amazing about it's... Continue Reading →
Yes. Cabo was amazing. My Sister and I got back over a month ago, and I'll write about that soon. But for now... there's another important milestone to report: I'm so happy to report that my amazing boyfriend *B* and I celebrated our one year anniversary last week. August 22nd is the special date. However,... Continue Reading →
Life carries on... like an endless tidal wave of boredom, loving moments with my boyfriend (too few and far between for my liking), the suffocating engulfing news with which I choose to stay close in contact with these days (Trump this, Trump that), and the steady drum of homework due each week in my online... Continue Reading →
Sorry I've been so distant. Life happened, in a fierce way. So, the past 6 weeks, I've been afflicted with 3 different sudden illnesses. Yikes. First off, about 6 weeks ago, I had a major throat infection (which I thought was strep, but wasn't.) $50 copay to urgent care to find out I just needed... Continue Reading →
Sorry for the long time between updates. Not that anyone is clutching to the edge of their computer screen just waiting, but for me, it's good for my soul to get things out and communicate, even if it is mostly just for me. To the one or two of you who stumble upon my blog,... Continue Reading →
These random thoughts are brought to you by... me being a procrastinator and not doing my homework. Ok, here goes... 😀 I'm currently addicted to the low calorie vegetable egg rolls at Dollar Tree. God help me. Another thing the bf has suggested that I love. lol Check this out, too. Recipe for Cinnamon... Continue Reading →
Having an amazing weekend, I hope you are too! Yesterday was probably one of the most amazing Saturdays I've had in my entire life. I spent a wonderful entire day with my boyfriend B yesterday. It was probably one of a handful of times in the past five months that we've been able to share... Continue Reading →
*Begin rant./* OK. I am not a politically correct Democrat from up North. No, I'm a Southern Democrat. So I'll tell it like it is, with a dose of southern shade, as expected. While I hate the negative news and negativity in general, I must express something tonight that has been killing me inside... Continue Reading →
Retro Poetry Intro: This poem appeared fourteen years ago in my personal poetry book #72, "1920's Love Songs (Or, Fuck It Sweetie)" Jan-Apr 2004. Obviously, I was a little tired of dating the same pieces of crap that I had come across in the 11 years I had dated prior to this. Enjoy! FIX-A-FLAT BOYFRIEND.... Continue Reading →
So, I heard this artist today on my Spotify curated personal playlist. This haunting, almost mystic voice followed me around my house. A sincere mixture of loneliness, love, happiness, intense emotion and realness. I had to glance at my Spotify. The artist's name was Shannon Lay and the song was called "Recording 15." The album... Continue Reading →
Review by Brian Bolding. This month, I'll be taking a look at the 2017 Microsoft Surface Pro, the Core M base model which is currently available as an educational bundle at Best Buy for $699, complete with type cover in the box. Note that this new model does not contain the Surface Pen, like... Continue Reading →
The following poem was written on March 1, 2013 and appeared in my personal poetry book "Monsoony" (Sep 12-Mar 13) * * * * standing on a snowy hill looking over the universe or Albuquerque, if you will; and I'm feeling a little damaged but its suddenly okay because i remember its simply my... Continue Reading →
This week has been interesting. Bracing, defiant, frantic and full of color. I had a nice surprise lunch at my place with the bf today, which was a nice change. I pick him up usually, and we go somewhere fast-foody and quick so we can share most of the hour together kissing in alleyways in... Continue Reading →
Today is the official 're-launching' of my website... my semi-permanent home on the Inkernet over the years.. more formally known as brianbolding.com ! This website has been in and out of my ownership over the years, and I just renewed it for 5 years, so I should be good for awhile again. *Insert canned laughter.*... Continue Reading →
Retro Poetry Intro: I wrote the following poem at the age of 15 for Poetry Book #6 - March 1991 - "Departure." At the time I was suffering with testicular cancer and was also coming to grips with my hidden, secret sexuality. I also hadn't been to regular school in a while and was missing... Continue Reading →
One of my ongoing 'resolutions' (if you can call it that) is to take a big deep breath each and every new year and remind myself that it takes more energy to be angry than just being happy and positive. So, in my usual tradition, I'm hoping not only my life but yours is as... Continue Reading →
My Dad's Favorite Quote That Was Repeated Often In My Childhood: "Proper Preparation Prevents Piss Poor Performance!" Obsessed with Atari again, just bought Atari Flashback Portable 2, Atari Flashback 8, and Atari Flashback 8 Gold all in one night. Heaven help me 😀 I like wearing fuzzy slippers and my warm bathrobe in the morning.... Continue Reading →
(This poem was originally written on October 3, 2001 and was published in the final Nov/Dec 2001 issue of my zine, 'Pop Art Trash') once again, life has got her ragged little claws in me. need I bother to ask for sym- pathy? I’m lost, rotten to the very base, I rest my case.... Continue Reading →
This year, one of my personal goals is to take more photographs. To be honest, I have a Canon Powershot G7X Mark II which is amazing. I sold my Canon T5i Rebel DSLR camera, which was very hefty and too heavy to take on most of my hiking adventures around town. Last year at the... Continue Reading →
Hey! Hope you and yours are having a wonderful new year... As I embark upon this new year, I am extremely grateful for so many things. I wrote about this at length previously so I won't go into it as much this go round, just know that I understand all the blessings God has given... Continue Reading →
Wow. 2018. I'm already mis-typing it as 2017 or like 1/7/17 and such. I guess this happens the more of these years that I encounter. Felt a little dizzy and off today, not sure what it was. Allergies or a sickness my body was averting or whatever. Anyways, just wanted to type up an update... Continue Reading →
On days like this I find it helps so much To look out for the silver lining Sometimes it’s within touch Trying to turn a sad face Upside down isn’t always The easiest thing to do But ignorance pays Look for the keys To having a brand new day Look for the path That will... Continue Reading →
I’m a little pup Here for the taking Wrapped up in a bow in a basket I’m a sex animal in the making I’m salivating wildly Here on all fours Oh baby touch me once Touch me twice, I’m all yours I’m a little angel With horns so sharp and pure I used to have... Continue Reading →
Today is a fresh start A new beginning... Today is the start of endlessly winning. Finding the silver lining In and out of everything... Today is a fresh start A brand new inning. Today is the start of anything other than yesterday... Today is the start of having nothing new to say. Today is a... Continue Reading →
As today draws to a close, I can’t help but look back upon the past year and deem it a successful if a little turbulent year. Politically, don’t go there. This year was terrible. Everything else was pretty great for me.. I took steps to improve my life by undergoing varicose vein surgery in March.... Continue Reading →
